Some days I reflect more than others and today seems to be a big day all around for that. Baby Neil is 2 years old and it's the last day of school for both my girls. I now have a 1st and 5th grader. It's so cliché to say, "Where did the time go?" or "Time just flies by" but it really does and I'm feeling it today. I don't want to miss a single thing in each of their lives yet the years are passing like cars on a highway.
I dropped Neil off at the airport yesterday afternoon and driving home this song, You're Gonna Miss This by Trace Adkins came on the radio and I couldn't help the tears that started coming.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lBDN8yWyNYU
So many times we wish our lives away and I don't mean it in the literal sense but we are always waiting for something in the future. Always hurrying through the day. Can't wait for the weekend. Looking forward to vacation. Can you believe we're married? Wow, such a big house for just the two of us. 2 more months until our new baby is here. Can't wait for that first smile, first step, first word, first hug and first I Love You. When I retire, I'm going to... Then pretty soon you've experienced many of those things and you say, "Boy, I wish we were still on our trip" or "Wish it was still that weekend" or "Seems like ages ago when I was in the hospital waiting for my baby to arrive", you see what I mean. Then again, that is what life is all about, getting to experience all those little (and big) things. Even the bad days make us a little more appreciative of the good ones.
My Anna was SO sick with strep throat and a double ear infection this past weekend and she just wanted me to be by her the whole time. As much as I wish that she wasn't sick, I sat and rubbed her head and played with her hair until she finally fell asleep and I thought to myself, I want to remember this very moment. A moment that I was able to soothe her, only me.
The sleepless nights when baby Neil was an infant and I thought they'd never end and I'd be sleep deprived forever. And now I'm wondering how he's 2 already?
When Sophie says, "Momma, their is no other momma like you, you're the best!" I want to somehow etch that moment in time in my memory forever.
Don't you ever think, "I will never get that minute, hour, day, year, whatever it may be, back again...ever." I do, I think about that a lot. I watched Sophie get off the school bus today and thought, she will never be a kindergartener again. I will watch Anna do the same and think she will never be a 4th grader again, ever. I know, I'm sappy like that but I can't help that if I'm not careful, those things will pass me by and I won't be able to get that time back again. So no matter how little, how crazy or how silly you may think something is...it's important to you. That's one of the reasons I take an insane amount of pictures, so life is well documented.
So today I say to myself, "You're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back. You're gonna wished these days hadn't gone by so fast. These were some good times. So take a good look around. You may not know it now but you're gonna miss this."
Gonna go plant some pretty flowers in my garden now and listen to the kids play outside because it will never be 1:21pm on this sunny Tuesday afternoon again. So enjoy right now, whatever it is that you may be doing.
